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Ahhh it's the month where Aquarians grow a year older =) ME ME ME, nahh first thing's first.. MOM's Birthday!! It was pleasant as it always is.. my parents aren't really the type to go wild during thier birthdays.. haha sometimes i wonder where i get my wildness from..HMMMM ANYWAY ...well they like haivng a pleasant meal with the family and yea thats it.. not much excitement is there.. haha =) but we always do respect thier decision.. i rarely get a birthday present for her.. wait.. i NEVER bought one before.. its not cause she's picky or anything.. she doesn't like us spending money on her, and always says that its the thought that counts hhahaa... SOOO this year i thought of buying her a bed of fresh lilies and a fresh box of home made chocolates.. *Thought only =) haha naahh im not that bad..=_ i made a pendant this year.. the type you can wear as a necklace..nothe the best i've done though =/ the paint job didnt really pan out .. but she was glad and happy my thoughts went into actions =) *thank god* my mom's birthday tradition is pretty simple.. haha morning and afternoon treat her like the Queen she is.. and at night bring her out for a lovely meal =) SOO next year you would know what to expect .. haha



Dinner at Daidamon *big together door haha *

MMMM barbeque.. haha

the night i had break open my brain to come up with something good to make.. =)

Im wearing formal for my mom's birthday :D FORMA L LEHH haha



Before =/
After .. haha



Sabrina's birthday!! :D

Before her birthday she gave me a list of what to get her.. mind you me..her list was expensive..haha xP but i managed to get one out of her list *right right?* =) i reached her house quite early as always..compared to others la.. she was already dressed and waiting for everyone to arrive.. =) i 've got to know 2 new ppl :D SEAPORN and Tiksin or aka Dick hahaha the names are formed for a reason..funny how we meet people at random places..they're fun to be around with ..good topics to talk about.. haha sama channel.. =) the whole day we were wondering on what to do..thnking of games to play, but in the end we just found it comfortable to just mingle.. we then watched a REALLY late move INKHEART *DO NOT WATCH.. BORING * hahahah im so mean.. at one U.. well all of us cept poor sheena =/,the poor thing didnt sleep the night before and slept the whole movie through* Sheena you didnt snore la.. haha MAYBE got drool =D OH OH OH we took a picture with the BIG FUCK hahaha we veri excited about the big big fuck hahaha


me and Sheena doing the Fish .. =/ but but i kept laughing hahaha

haha we made keith gay that day.. XDD CHRISTIAN believed it! hahaha =) riiight keith ? haha
we happy :D you happy?

the very HAPPY birthday girl and vain me =) haha

CNY post..darn late but its a must =)

well as usual, we've spent our cny's with popo in johor =)
its great to see all your cousins again and stuff ,especially if your cousin came back from U.K =) god i missed her haha.. she hasnt changed her accent though -.- dissapointed at you hahah 2 years plus and no accent! Dont keep speaking chinese with BING!! Haha but it was all pleasant =)
but i get the feeling that im just there to meet them and i have no mood for CNY at all =/ its all going past too fast, i dont feel excited when i get greetings from uncles and aunties ..O.o is this serious? =/
the CHINESE NEW YEAR MOOD AINT THERE, i've tried wearing REALLY red and stuff.. it does help but it still doesnt really fit .. haha
this year was abit different then last year.. we had our reunion dinner at home =) cause popo was sick =/ *god damn worried about her..suddenly couldnt move her legs * but it turns out she just had fever and was just really tired.. haha *i cant upload pics at the moment.. -.- lousy internet connection* but its the time with my grandma i try to cherish most ..though we dont have the same topics and yea we speak in different dilects..but i DO love her =) she's reaaaally sweeet.. haha i remember once when we went back to johor on my brithday.. she gave me 2 eggs early in the morning as a present hahaha she's the first xD
With all the smses everywhere i was bound to be out of credit. . haha thanks for the wishes everybody =/ paiseh couldnt reply.. haha
it was a wild 5 days in johor =) fun ,tiring exciting ..boring at times ..haha
but its chinese new year DUHH wad you expect..
i loved the last night with my cousin tho =) she brought me out to mamak and we went karaoeking at.. 1am? YEA 1 am.. haha we sang our lungs out till 3am before we barely could talk .. haha its really cool, to see people so enthused about singing at such timing -.- *we were actually out of rooms.. we had to pester the lady till she gave us one haha ,1am and the place was fulll WTH.. haha* one of my cousin's friend was REALLY pissed =/ SCARY haha.. nice to me.. but SCARY haha
i love you cousins and relatives so very much =) and yea we do live far apart form each other but we fight to keep in contact ,
ang pao ang pao's is what i get for visiting others =) hoho who's next hahaha..

First car lesson ....

SO nervous .. =/ So uncertain.. So very blur..
I couldnt stand it dont know why.... i was sweating trying not to make the wrong move..my face was serious.. trying to make no easy mistakes.. but then i jerked -.- clutch tak tekan properly.. ISH i hate manual !! i matikan engine atleast... 15 plus times? Haha..im just not used to it i guess.. but after a while of intense nagging andscolding from the instructor...i managed to go on fluently haha WITHOUT jerking..

My instructor was this 60++ old man who REALLY doesnt like me.. hahah no idea why.. EVERYTHING i do in the car he'll mumble/nagging about it.. like when i put on the signal before i turn... he goes.." Why you signal now?Why not before this? You want to turn then only signal people isit?" *in cantonese* i was like.. *fark -.-* i couldnt really stand the man.. he didnt have patience for the STUDENT to get used to the OLD kancil =/

I guess now my turning and driving is okay.. when it comes to reversing..EVEN tho im doing it correctly... he'll go.. "Dont go so fast.. you want to go up tree meh" *in cantonese* HOW is going 15km/h FAST.. oh well.. JUST 12 hours more with him... hopefully i can make it..

Played loads of basketball lately.. AT school.. haha the one thing i miss about school mohaha..i love hanging with the guys and just play 4 on 4 =) the sweaat that comes out is REALLY satisfying after eating loads of chocolates haha..*Sabrina HAHAHA* but today was dissapointing.. the SOYABEAN man didnt come and ring us .=/ so darn pissed hahah ..its this guy that comes with a motorbike..ringing*Dao jiong shui,Dao jiong shui* arhh reminiscing the old times..

Why so complicated..

Day by day I walk alone, thinking to myself what an idiot I used to be and things I could’ve changed.. Day by day I wander and I ponder of a time where things were simpler and yet not so complicated. Day by day watching my life go on without a target.. a goal and yet still survive makes me wonder what strives me to keep moving forward..
Sometimes I believe that each and every person has a chance to decide..a chance for an opportunity..a chance for miracles to happen..maybe not today but someday something will turn up..
But then I wonder what if i’ve missed that chance.. what if I blindly went through it without leaping for the risks behind.. I can’t imagine a more horrifying scenario..
At times like this I believe that im a coward.. a fraud.. for wanting more then what I get..its always something Im afraid to overcome..
I always make excuses like im waiting for the right moment to show.. or the opening has not been opened..but maybe that’s why I’m lying on my bed thinking of what would could’ve been if I’ve done it the way I intended to..and not turn back..
Maybe its me..everyone has their battles to overcome.. mine just started ..and I’ve yet a plan to thrust through the barriers that I have built myself..talking is always easier then getting the job done..i told myself to not jeopardize the friendship we’ve had..but taking it further is always a risk.. its whether to take it or not..
Maybe in time things will start to clear up and I would finally take my stance..but hope its not too late and my chances may be taken by somebody else.. *bugger, why la make it so complicated.. -.-! Now I’m going to try to sleep as it will take my mind off things..

KEN and EVA!! LU BACA BETUL BETUL!!STAY WELL AND TAKE CARE IN THE U.S! Six months dude! Hopefully that Malaysian slang stays =) HOHO I ate char kuew teow just now :D hahaha we'll miss ya! .. Cheers!

Circle of appreciation ..

Essay: Circle of appreciation (Late pass up) Teacher : Wan Ming Wai *HOHO*

Haha i know im like days late from this update but what the hell =)
This post is to reveal what you guys mean to me and don’t be sad if your name isn’t in here.. haha for campers only *

I started going to Kiwanis on the year 2007 =D aannnd i was FORMALY invited by

Sabrina: Yea, it was you that brought me into this. At first, i was in it for you only =) ,since you so dearly asked me.. but let me tell you all some stuff you might not know about Sabrina, she was once a person that kept her thoughts to herself, a person that is relatively shy and closed. But as you all know now, everything,.. wait.. MOST of the things about her changed ,now she’s looouud and she’s humourous, she’s idealistic and very sophisticated =) Haha she’s pretty and cute, but most importantly she’s what she is.. and she never fakes it .. haha.
What would i do without you!! Seriously.. =), but sometimes i would think back if i KNEW Sabrina back then like how i know her now.. things would be different.. she and i are childhood friends supposebly, just cant recall it, but now i can proudly say i know Sabrina Cheong better ,waaaay better. We’re much closer now.. (thank god). You would tell me your stories and i would listen intetently to it =) , but now i know its better to share then just to receive =D i’ll tell you mine when we’re out =) whether sad or happy ,Qian is there! Hmm i think its kinda freaky that we’re both Aquarians and we love most of the same food .. cool,but freaky sometimes =) (we’re food lovers!)
I know that i’ve been keeping most of the stuffs to myself and not spilling anything out.. but its just i feel there’s no need for anyone to hear my sorrows , but atleast now i know , when im sad i’ll know where to go =)

The person that was in the SAME bus as me

Edwin: From day one all i could hear was... Edwin laa the TALL guy la.. there there... the head bopping across wann.. haha you were the one with Cheryl trying to warm the campers in the Bus.. but FAILED terribly hahaha. Edwin arh Edwin,this guy is really easy to get along with. He has his own world, filled with things he could do. He does what he loves and does it well. He can be a Captain sometimes but then becomes a coward when it comes to leeches hahaha (hehehe) He’s really athletic, plays basketball like me =) hahaha, but the height is something i don’t have la.. (what la you people) He has a great sense on food and fasion and i believe everyone can agree on that. He looks out for me and i really appreciate it.
HE CALLS ME MONEY MONEY AT CAMP!! God that day when leeches were about.. you cracked me up sooo hard.. haha =) the bulu from head to toe were standing up -.- Makaning is our hobby no? Well its right next to basketball, lets go sometime! =) *call nic and ming :D

The high one.. HAHAHA =D that made me go “O.o whut the..”

Aileeeeeeeeeeeeeen: its kinda true when i first met you.. i HAD no idea what to say you at first..was just afraid.. and i wouldn’t know what to do if you exploded with laughter =) haha it was probably the first for me xD, BUT,but AFTER i met you and got to know you =), you’re this AWESOME person , its really easy to get along with you.. =) with all our topics we shared haha, its nice to know i have you around as a neighbour leh...you do loooads of crazy stuff and i learned most of em d =D (but sneaking out may cause me a death penalty) haha =) we share our jokes and we laugh our laughs. HAHA sometimes i have to listen reaaaaally closely to understand what you’re saying when you’re all hyper.. its like, youknowthisguythathahahahaa then most of the time i would go..O.o !! And JUST so you know i DO know how to dance d =D haha really embarrassing leh the first ball dance.. =/ ishh ..DONT go Sungai LONG .. don’t go Sheena there..
Sheena there baad..Qian here good! =D hahah

The ..... MOOBS..(oops have i said too much?)

Ming Waaaai: This guy arh.. THIS GUY ARHH,got to know him at the 10th Kyc :D haha which is really cool ,no..not cause he has the moobs..his charisma through life and the energy he brings out. He’s really talented when it comes to music , piano,guitar..singing? O.o haha ,being aroundis just like being with my pals in *my ex school* hahaha yeah we can talk about anything, ANYTHING. HAHA from the post you made about me.. Yes im VERY thankful that you’re a guy hahah. From the first camp ,you were the one i looked up to i guess.. haha being mc and all =P *the confidence and all is still something i don’t have,but im slowly picking up . i do find it wierd that you LOVE Rihana.. haha you LOVE her voice and face huh? Hahaha =) you’re a great guy and a really good friend =) a guy to humour with , a guy to laugh with . OHHH you’re a REALLY coooool guy leh.. hahaha REALLY COOL .*inside joke*

The first one i spoke to in the group, the one that i opened up to ,

Vina: Aiyoyo! Where to start =) , we were strangers but like best friends when we first met.. which is .. really wierd for me to meet such a person , cool and really grateful to come across .. haha you taught me what to do.. guided me in may of the obstacles that i couldn’t overcome.. haha you pushed me to write mails.. =D I love seeking you for guidance... you would just stop and JUST help me =) haha which sometimes made me feel precious hahaha, silly noh? =D but its true =) . At times i have to wonder what you’re thinking..its hard to just even put a pin on it ..haha thinking about it makes me feel irritated haha , WE love karaoke! You sing really well and im sure everyone can agree on that YOUR VOIIICEEE =)i feel homey around you ,and i don’t really need to find a place where i really fit in.. with you it just fits haha its probably just the feeling you give me.. or others that we can just be around you =) dunno .. its this feeling larh. Thinking how we first met really made me go wow inside.. haha but to tell the truth i miss you on my team =( ..

The one hawt model that i cant live without,

Sheena : God forbid, i don’t know what i’d do without you. =) Haha i survived *tuition*history with .. don’t know how i did it .. =) i really love your company..its really cool that you have an artistic side of you that would just WANT to draw.. whenever wherever just like me lehh.. =) You would come to me when you have problems sometimes.. and i REALLY did try to help =/ just dwarfed with advices sometimes...things in life may be complicated and cruel, but you will always stand out from the rest .. i don’t want you to read too much into them.. what they think about you, its all nonsense.. haha if i’d knew them i would soo bish them.. =) GIMMME THEIR HOUSE ADDRESS...WHATS YOUR PROBLEM EH?. hahahah =) i realise that you’re REALLY patient.. sometimes. Hahah =) which is good.. if i were you at many of those stuffy situations.. .dont think i can last long..sure explode.. .you kept saying never mind la.. i kept going wtf wth wtf! Haha.. i sure would miss seeing you everyweek ..haha Wednesday 3.30 with your big bag , flipflops and a SHEENA attitude =/ haha but i guess taylors aint that far =) and ... i spelt ALICE as ALEX -.- ... sooo wrong... Haha you’re my Alice =)
The Untitled Survivor..,

Natalie: Haha =) i REALLY got to know you this year,*starbucks* last year ...not so much... haha =) SORRY LA the mail thing.. hahaha could’ve wrote essays for you *starbucks*okay.. haha =) during the camp.. you were my guide*starbucks* through out everything.. you’re the one planning everything..haha and i? Just tagged along . you have the experience from the past camps and i learned loads from you =) when it comes to team work, you really do stand out.. thats what kept the team going.. =) you show a good example*starbucks* for the rest to follow.. =) i know la you busy and all.. what with your starbucks and college.. haha *STARBUCKS STARBUCKS STARBUCKS* haha =) all i can hear when it comes to your name , funny xD YOU OWE ME A CARAMEL MACCHIATO *is that spelt correctly? With your busy schedule its hard to come around =P don’t worry.. cari one day we lepak.. and no.. not at starbucks haha =) Glad that you were on the team =)

THE SMILE that i cant resist,

Melody: heyy ... i really miss you =) ,it always has been hard to find time to chat with you... but now? different time zone summore hahaha.. your sons "Edwin, Ming Wai and me miss you very much" hahha =) the way you would stare at food like a lion hunting a prey, and the smile that makes the place enlightedned with your presense.. haha, you supported me loads and i wished i could do something in return.. come back! i earn money belanja you ice cream =) Have fun in U.K but just so you know you owe me a biiig smile when you come back =)

The Pussycat Doll gonnabe,

KEN: *LU SAPA?* Haha i remember the first time we met at Nat’s house , i didn’t really know how to come up to you and talk.. wierd. xD felt really wierd.. but this camp really made me open my eyes *sounds like ming wai’s comment*and change the impression that was there..haha you’re this awesome dude with the enery to really entertain ..with your dancing and everything hahhaa , your bitching from cheer leader really rocks hahaha your Harry Potter impression cracked me up soo badly.. that the video at youtube itself sucked.. TRUE LEH haha yours is so much better.. but the puppet hotter than you la..and soon you’re going to U.S , don’t turn to a blonde bitch hohoho , im going to wonder how are you going survive the atmosphere there.. don’t kena bully by bitches aight.. bitch slap them back hahaha =)

THE NICK

Nicholas: dude.. i don’t really know you,and we rarely hang out but when we do.. its like it fits haha =) i do know you’re this really open minded guy with tons of experience..you’re atheletic? Hahaha that i have yet to find out,. Basketball!? Hoho basketball is our circle hahaha =) you’re a really energetic guy during camp..although its just that ONE camp.. =) ii really liked the clap, its in my head like gum, hahahope to see you around =) *tak tahu nak cakap ape lagi.. =) *hang out more la!

The mirror’s reflection,

KEITH: Dude..!! you’ve changed loads since i last saw you ..major improvement.. =) though i don’t really really know you, but there’s always room for improvement. Just change a twigs here and there :D ehh that bandana , its sooo nice of you to buy them for all of us, haha but i don’t really look good in bandana’s... feel.. shorter hahaha =) cheers dude.. good luck in college =)

THE HOSTEST OF THE YEAR,

Dsya: haha you were SOO nervous ... xDD its really cool that you did it anyways =) haha i do know you’re this sweet person inside and sometimes emotional, but i do understand you =) *I FAHAM LU CAKAP APA* although camp wasn’t really the time we got to know each other, MSN is our main priority sometimes noh? =) you have one more year of high school, enjoy it till the last day.. its the ONLY high school year left.. UNLESS you taking form 6 haha =) ttyl =)

The voice,

Kevin!: Hooii you, why your voice so geng wan.. -.- haha everytime you sing the vibrator will go on.. and on XD abit too much sometimes..hahaha, you’re really fun to hang out with.. though i don’t really know you but you blend well with us =) thanks for the Christmas gift.. WHY so Serious hahahahahaa, you WILL never be the joker.. even if your mom named you that hahaha =D

WELL im done,took me days to think of what to write =) , tomorrow start college! Tomorrow start school! Good luck in everthing you do and enjoy the days that come along =) ciao ppl, sleep..

Merry X'mas =D

Haha Auntie Trisha's creation =D *watermelon christmas tree* Christmas is upon us! =D


Like Every Christmas , we celebrate with others =)
This year was a big crowd =)
And we have the IREGULAR ONES =) Connor and Ciara *the ang mo’s* =/
They were my neighbours like 4 years ago =) Happy to see them again! THEY CHANGED …LIKE LOADS. No more Malaysian accent *meant to be* ,Connor no longer the hyper one,Still skinny ..Ciara Grew =) but she ‘s still the same old cheerful ones =)
They meant a lot to me.. haha in many ways, they bring horror during daylight O.o *once ,they ran around the HOUSE with kitchen knives.. Ciara..”CONNOR YOU COME BACK HERE WITH MY POSTER OR IM GOING TO STAB YoU” that’s kinda normal if you’re with them Everyday =) you’ll get a lot of shouting around the house.. =)
Many many uncountable crazy stuff we did do *yoda soundalike?* =) it was just nice to see them again..
Haha TOTALLY different personalities the both of em.. haha one is a CAMWHORE =) the other one is CAMSHY =P
We all have our strengths =)
Weeeeeell, my *not related* uncles and aunts brought us FOOD =D

Got hungry just looking at them =P

once a year is ok.. everyday cannot.. haha 10 years fat ,10 years fat..Gifts were as nice as as always =) I got a… CK cologne,hugh boss one and addidas one =P I got a *chargers shirt! Nice!! *Edwin I now know why you don’t really like Hugh Boss cologne.. ITS REALLY STRONG* the Scent ..=/ haha but all was well =) I even got halo books O.o? Haha =)

After makaning we went down to see THE rest of the menara polo people, talked laughed mingled and CAMWHORED =D Connor’s disfavorite =) GOD just like old times =) got them all hyper =P
Being in that type of atmosphere was just a feeling never to forget =/ *trueee okay*
But we ended up all hhappy with the pics =)
THAT’S WHAT I DID FOR CHRISTMAS..YOU? =D

*where santa? =( * where?*

Merry Christmas people *cheers*